Jo Cool Mama

I knew Sam was going to be a boy the moment I realized I was pregnant. It was meant to be - as a young girl dreaming of my future I predicted having a boy, and naming him Sam. It seemed so real when I would talk about it to my friends and then as I grew up and realized I didn’t want children - I wrote Sam off as a silly childhood fantasy. When, surprise, I got pregnant I just knew it was Sam. Then when we planned a second child and I got pregnant - I got the girl vibe. Probably because I wanted a girl this time. Everyone around me got the same vibe but the ultra sound showed a penis - and once again we were expecting a boy. After the shock that I was wrong, and after freaking out about having two boys and thinking the worst about fighting - we were excited! Jack was born and he’s awesome! I still feel the desire to spawn another like me - a girl to share girl stuff with, someone to bond with in a way only two girls can.

My friend, who has a five-year-old son, gave me the great news that they are expecting their second in July! Then I got the message that the baby was a girl - and instant envy set in. A good envy. I got excited because I knew that finally I would be able to go baby girl shopping! I went, I shopped and both my mother and my husband were forced to cut me off… it was sad. My friend also lives nearly 500 miles away from me…again, sad. So, I bought her a few dresses, a few hats, a sleeping gown, a couple blankets and a few little shoes… I was on a girlie high looking at all the cute little girl things - because the cute factor is all in the girl stuff!

I get to see the bundle of pinky joy a couple weeks after her birth (planned c-section) and I just cannot wait! I am thinking that seeing the cute little female will worsen the desire to create - but I am positive that when I have to deal with the two Boyz at Disneyland that desire will be snuffed for a while… possibly forever…. Who knows…